my poems and songs
give me credit and ask permission if you ever want to use one/all/some of these poems.*-a song that i have a beat for
**-a song that i have a beat that i'm happy with
-Autumn♥
#9-ME?
a (not very) telling poem by Autumn Palen on April 12, 2008
i've seem to have lost my edge
of the knife i tightly hold
i live my life so slowly
that i can't possibly grow old
dancing in the rain
hugging people in the street
i'm a dream of a bad nightmare
to everyone i meet
now i wish i was outgoing
do all the crazy things she does
but i simply just cannot and here's because;
i am not wise, or cute, or smart
hey, there is a start
i can't do outgoing things without some pride
i stay to all the normal things in my crazy life
with my savior Jesus Christ as my one guide
walk and dance and play and scream
do all the things you do
no matter how much you screw up
i will always love you
come on,do it now
doing what, i do not know
do i seem oblivious?
well i'm sorry that it showed.
#8-A DEVIOUS POEM
A very short poem by Autumn Palen on April 12, 2008
i thought about maybe
killing you today
but lets change the subject
away from talkin' about that i'll sway
so how is the weather?
and your family. dear?
i hope their finances are good
because your death is near
very near
oh dear.
#7-VICTIM OF HERSELF
a pretty meaningless poem by Autumn Palen on April 12, 2008
she does not have but a flaw
yet she is not perfection
if anyone's to ask if she's nice
there is no objection
of almost everything she's unsure
but there's one thing for sure:
if there was a "sadness sickness" she would be the cure.
her eyes are windows to her face
at least that is what i'm told
she will be the person
that is still young when they're old
standing in the hall
her hands on her head
she carries the same distress
hours later, in her bed.
she always has a secret
and something big to hide
she always thinks of slitting wrists
and committing suicide
why does she have those thoughts?
of that no one is sure
but there's one thing for sure:
if there was a "sadness sickness" she'd be the cure.
she is always thinking
thinking of it all
they think one day inside her mind
would be a great big ball
but really there is nothing good
about what's in there
and she thinks everyone just should not care
she always has something nice to say
but nothing nice about herself
she always longs to be abused
or put on someone's shelf
she is a victim of herself
a victim of herself.
**#6-LITTLE MISS PERFECT
By Autumn Palen on April 12
little miss perfect sets the stage
as a girl of about your age
all you children gather around
listen to my voice's sound
little miss perfect does what she's told to
says what she's told to
eats what she's told to
little miss was given a kiss
on the cheek
how sweet
now other grew jealous
of how she was overzealous
she was happy all the time
she sang in the day
but kept quiet at night
nothing made her angry
nothing gave her a fright
now to this there is no end
a perfect life is such a bore
hearing of the perfect
can only make you snore
so little miss
kept on being her bestest
while others in the corners
they would cry
would cry
they hated life
hated even little miss
could you imagine
someone hating little miss?
but they did
oh they did
no one gave them love
no one gave them smiles
little miss rode to school
while others walked for miles
eventually they killed her
threw her body in a lake
all the others, how they questioned!
they blamed it on a big earthquake
now please abrupt the crying
dry those tears with a big smile
for all you imperfect people
will be around for quite a while
the end!
**#5-SPEAKEASY
by Autumn Palen on April 12 2008
speakeasy
speak fast
aren't these movements
a blast?
i love dancing around
to this elegant sound
every thing's wrong
and every thing's right
every thing's looser
every thing's tight
every thing's love
every thing's hate
if we get busted
a jail cell's our fate
we move easy
speak fast
and talk slow
grab my outreached hand lets go
to a place
where every face is there.
bring a friend or bring twelve,
i dont care
let's go there
**#4-CONSTANT MASQUERADE
by Autumn Palen on April 12 2008
sometimes i just feel like i am in a masquerade
it's a contant parade of fakeness
you hide you're face
you can't trust anyone
pretend to have grace
act like you're having fun
there are all different colors
but yet no one will hate
because we're all dancing around
in this constant masquerade
there all people in the back
guessing who we really are
you can never get it right
inside we all are stars
i guess no one really knows
who they are or who they've been
deep inside
you will find
that their heart is paper thin
everything's a crime
every movement's an affair
come along and hold me tight
i will take you there
dance around and laugh
cause a fight cause a scene
because no one really cares
if you're happy, sad or mean
you create your own memories
yet no memories are made
there is guaranteed a blast
at the constant masquerade.
*#3-TELL HER NOW
a suckier song/poem by autumn palen on April 12, 2008
across the room
is a girl you know
at a glance she's odd
but she's more
you know you love her
inside you care
well cross the room
she's standing there
say it right
say it fast
like you mean it
she'll know you do
she's in love with you
whats wrong with you?
keeping it all inside
take her for a ride
she'll go home happy tonight
she keeps it hid
her heart's sealed with a lid
afraid of rejection
you are the objection
she's opened up for you
you turned her down
just go
just go
turn her whole life around
do you know
how many times she's thought of killing herself?
knives and pills in her shelf
you can stop that now
if you love her
do you love her?
tell her you love her now
*#2-KATIE
by autumn palen on April 12, 2008
fake a smile
you know it lasts for a while
fake hapiness
and it looks like this:
i know you pretend to be happy
pretend to have fun
if i were to name a strong friend
i know you'd be one
you keep you're head up and smile
though i know that inside you cry
why?
so much held in
so much within
too many burdens to bare
you are a great friend
you are a strong friend
i want you to know that i care
you hate yourself and what you do
as much as it's possible
i get you
do you get me too?
#1-BROKEN HEART
by autumn palen on April 12, 2008
i need someone to kiss me
someone to miss me
someone filled with love
that God sent from above
my Lord won't finish this task
no matter how much i ask
i want someone true
i need someone like you
you'd never like me, i know no one will
as i move frantically, the world's ever so still
i stand in front of a mirror and try to correct my flaws
i wish i had a "pretty" rulebook, a big list of laws
no matter how much i do,i cry, sing, and yell
her life is like heaven while mine is a hell.
God is still with me, he just doesnt give
the prayers i ask for, to guide me or live
in a world where i'm happy, no, that,He wont do
as long as i'm living my mind is on you.
my head in the clouds, my heart, it is broken,
i'd stand in front of crowds but won't speak the last words spoken
im shy when i'm near you,i try to keep strong
but whenever i'm near you,all that i say is wrong.
they give me weird looks,when i give you a glance
friends, God, life, and you,please give me a chance.
i know i'd do right if there was right to do
i'd waste all my life doing nothing with YOU
this is a story of my broken heart
that's not even the begining,not even the start
i will always love you,young, old, fat or thin,
the crying girl in me is always within.
i stand alone in whatever i do
i try to think of something else, but my mind wanders towards you
i don't know why i love you,but somehow i do
you keep me going no matter what you do.
it did not take much effort to write something that long
all the broken hearts close your eyes and sing along.